Cutting calories, cutting cocaine, and just plain cutting.

Today was horrible.

I ate two hotdogs.

TWO.

I'm so done with myself.

Urg.

And I've been limping all day, because there's a gash on my leg I have from Monday night that's finally starting to heal and the skin's so tight and it's so sore, and... and... argh.

The two hotdogs are the only things I've eaten today (no buns or sauces just the actual meaty thingies) and they bring my count up to 368. So no more food, except coffee and Diet Coke. Oh I don't know how I'd live without my coffee and coke.

Talking about coke: F is sorta kinda maybe addicted to it. Not the good coke, the bad coke. Like cocaine. The shit you shove up your nose. He's quitting though, he promised me. He's why I'm quitting the self-harming too. Well, trying anyway. The cocaine bothers me and the cutting bothers him, so we've promised to stop for eachother.

So I've got such an exiting life huh?

No more food, no more cutting.

Calorie Count 6/3/13

Intake:
Chocolate cupcake of UNKNOWN FRIGGIN CALORIES THAT IM ANNOYED AT.
Whew calm down you crazy bitch.
K then.
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My tits are calm.
Jks my nipples are doing spins.

Yeah I know I'm weird leave me alone (goes to cry in the corner)

Ok ok I'm better now.

Excersise:
1 hour of walking:
189kcals

Net: IDEK ASDFGHJKJHGFDSA


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Well basically tomorrow's weigh in day, and I swear to the gods if I've gained I will punch through a wall.

I WILL BE SKINNY <3

Love you all.

300 calories

I've got 300 calories for the day. My friend doesn't want to finish her chips and shes trying to give them to me.
This is gonna be hard.
To stay under 300 calories today all I can eat is a fraction of whatever dinner my mother makes, so I've drank a SF energy drink with like 4 calories in it and chewed a shitload of gum.

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Woohoo I got some followers and a comment and shit so I love you ok? :D Let's be friends.

Basically earlier in school my friend force-fed me a chocolate cupcake. Literally shoved it halfway down my throat. I love her and all but it was a miracle I didn't chop her into bits and set them on fire. Haha... haha... ha... yeah.

So I'm refusing to eat anything for the rest of the day because I have absolutely NO clue how many calories were in that cupcake. Could be 50, could be 350. So no more food. I can do this!

Calorie Count 5/3/2013

Let's just say that I ate like a fat pig today and I'm not giving my calories because I'm just that ashamed.

ABC diet starts tomorrow though, so I will fix today's mistakes.

I've also found out that I'm allergic to bananas. Basically eating one was like taking a box of laxatives. TMI? Ah sure.

I WILL BE SKINNY <3

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Btw, just wanted to mention that I haven't SH'd today ^^ that's a plus. I had the urge earlier but I just sort of fought it down. I've promised myself I'm not bringing a blade to school anymore either, fuck my anxeity, I'll learn to deal.

ABC

I'm starting the ABC diet in the morning. Going to stick to it strictly and make sure I get in either an hour of walking or 20-30 minutes of running a day. Anyone want to join me?